What I am thankful for and/or blessed with

1. God. I cannot imagine getting through this without repairing my relationship with God. I have turned my back on Him the past year. I have assumed I can handle all this, without giving my thanks or praise. I know now, I cannot do this on my own. I have to lift my hands high, and give my pain to Him. Without Him, I cannot do this. Without the verses I have been reading, I would be lost. I am now thirsty for Him again. It is a good feeling.

2. Family:
-My husband has been 100% completely supportive. He has been there to hug,hold,laugh,cry,walk,run,and wait on me this whole past week. I could not ask for a better husband.
-My mother. She has been through this all before. She has been my sounding board when I am convinced I'm dying and when I didn't think I could do this anymore.
-My dad. He has been able to support me in the best way he can. He is the one who pushes me to work through this, and to focus on the future.
-My step-mom. She has also given me advice since she's been through this before also. She's given me options and choices, and best of all, just listened.
-My grandparents. They have opened up my eyes to God once again, and pushed me to realize this is all a test, Satan working to get ahold of me, to get me to lose my faith and give up. They have given me hugs and numerous phone calls just to listen to me while I feel like I'm going crazy.
-New York Auntie. She has made me feel sane while I suffer. She has told me her horror stories, and made me feel like I can get through this.
-My dog Duke. He has been there to snuggle and love me when I need it most. I swear he knows I'm in pain.
-All the other members I'm forgetting who have helped me focus on other things this past week. You also mean the world to me.

3. Friends.
-Gilda. She has also made me feel sane. She has been there to listen and to 'hold my hand' and walk me through this. She has also helped me take baby steps back into my relationship with God. She actually recommended I do this :)
-I'm also thankful for my other friends who have been there to check in on me and listen to me pain.

That is all for now :)