Welp, the Xanax didn't work. I was up at 3:45am, wide awake and alert. I didn't even fight it. I got up, took 1/2 Xanax, ate some crackers and turned on Netflix. I sipped some water while watching 'Beethoven' the cute puppy movie. I think I did fall asleep for 30-45minutes, and decided to take my Paxil at 6:15am. I was ultra nauseous again, and got up for a walk with my mom. We were gone for nearly 2 hours, it felt nice. We actually ran into my guardian angel that handed me out the note about being prepared to meet Jesus. My mom and I both started crying as we thanked her, that was nice. I didn't throw up!
I didn't really feel well all day to be honest. I kept finding new side effects to freak myself out about (tingly tongue, brain firing, restlessness, twitching). My mom was able to keep me calm most of the time, otherwise I was pacing around the house.
Since my grandparents are in town, we went to my aunts house for dinner. I was nervous, but it went really well. I actually ate two pieces of garlic bread, a bowl of salad and a hot dog bun. We were there for 4 hours, and I didn't have a panic attack. I started to get anxious on our way home, because I knew morning was coming soon. I took an Ambien and went quickly to sleep.
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