My last day on Paxil

So, a little has changed since my last post 2 days ago. My last post was covering Saturday.

Well Sunday was like I was living in a nightmare. To top it off, it was my birthday. I woke up at 2am, but forced myself to stay in bed. I turned on my meditation music, and tried to focus on it. I ended up sleeping a 1/2 hour here and there. Didn't get out of bed until 6am, which was an accomplishment. I woke up nauseous again, and went for a walk trying to get in a routine. I seemed to be pacing a lot more than usual. It even felt like my brain was being electrocuted, so uncomfortable. I kept clenching my jaw so tightly it was hard to even eat. I tried chewing gum and sucking on jolly ranchers, but nothing worked. It was to the point I could not sit still. I would either stand and rock between legs, or sit in the rocking chair and rock. I felt like I was going crazy.

At 12:30p we went to my aunts for my birthday celebration. I was miserable. Food did not sound or smell appealing to me, it actually made me feel sick. I spent some time talking to everyone while my brain moved 5000mph. I went to the guest room to lay down, but that made me feel worse. I took another Xanax. I went out to eat with everyone. I should clarify, watch everyone eat. They had my fav, lasagna, and ice cream cake, none of which I had. I started crying at the table in front of everyone. I decided to go sit on the couch and try to chew down carrots, which I was able to do! I actually fell asleep for about 30 minutes, but was up and rearing to go again when I woke up. At 6pm, I got home and went immediately for a walk with my dog and husband. I was talking so fast I could hardly understand myself. It felt like my brain was on fire and I had to keep shaking my arms and twitching my fingers. As soon as I got back I took a cold shower and this made me feel worse. I decided I had enough. I called the on call doctor and told her my problems, and started hyperventilating. She said I was experiencing adverse side effects and should stop Paxil immediately. She gave me two options 1. go to the ER, or 2. take a Xanax and breathe into a paper bag. She also said if taking a Xanax every 6 hours did not work, to go to the ER.

So I took a Xanax and started breathing into a bag. It helped temporarily, but my heart started to race again. I went to bed and turned my music on, trying to focus on it. After one hour I still didn't feel well, and was tempted to just give up and go to the ER. But my husband convinced me to ride it out for at least one more hour. I ended up falling asleep!