A year has come and gone since my last entry. What a different place I was in then, emotionally-mentally. I've been medication free for over a year now, and that is a wonderful feeling. I continue to handle my anxiety (which is ever-present) by working out hard 4-5 days a week and doing things I enjoy. I'm down 20 lbs over the past year, and have maintained my current weight for the past 4 months (pretty awesome). I have not had a 'full-blown' panic attack over the past year. Maybe because I know what they feel like now, and I address it immediately. It may sound crazy, but I feel more susceptible to panic attacks on an empty stomach, so I try to snack often and it helps!!
Well that being said, it may all change now because...
I'm pregnant!
This has come as somewhat as a surprise, as we weren't going to really start trying until this fall. I got off my birth control last fall, and have been on prenatal vitamins since then. Prenatal vitamins by the way, gross. I've puked so many times from them, most people say it's due to the high Iron content. I guess it's been preparing me to practice upchucking my food, so yay.
By the time I've posted this, everyone else will know who is close to me. I felt such a strong need to start blogging this AMAZING gift from God, as I transition into motherhood. Let me tell ya, finding my password and email address was pretty difficult!
Anywho back to the pregnancy thing. Today, 4/26, and my period is five days late. It has not every fluctuated this much, plus we, uh, *ya know* close to my ovulation day. I didn't think anything of it, but when I noticed absence of a period along with some minor cramps I got a little NERVOUS. I took a test yesterday and it took FOREVER to work, and BAM negative... Hm. So basically, if I start my period here in the next couple days no one will see this post. At least, not the pregnancy part.
If I am pregnant, wowee, what a journey this will be. I spend all day everyday with children, so I know I'll handle that part okay. It's more the...not sleeping, gaining weight, labor, money thing that bothers me. Speaking of labor. Tyler and I decided awhile ago that we'd go with a home birth. All my friends/family think I'm crazy, but I know I can do this. What an empowering opportunity, and I refuse (as much as I can) to be drugged in any way. So, we'll see how that goes...
I haven't gotten much sleep over the past three days. It's all due to NOT KNOWING for sure if I am pregnant. For a planner, this part is difficult, hence the blog. I'll keep trying to write a post when I can, then when everyone knows, I'll post them all :)
Sunday, May 4, 2014
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Our new addition!
We have a new addition to our little family.
MEET MILLIE!
She is such a wonderful puppy. I found Millie on Salina Buy/Sell/Trade for FREE with: 1 yr heartworm protection, 3 beds, large crate, food, Christmas stocking, toys, treats and bowls. She is wonderful 3 year old puppy, who adores Duke (even though the picture might not show it). They give each other kisses and cuddle, it is ADORABLE. She is fully house trained and puppy trained to sit, stay and come. We are so thankful we found her.
Monday, April 8, 2013
Monday Blues
I'm going on week 3 of taking Pristiq every other day. It's had a it's good and bad days. Today was one of those bad days. I woke up with a start for some reason, panicky like really bad heartburn. I sat up and got super dizzy. Last time I felt like that I split my toe nail when I ran into the bathroom door... I have no idea how I got ready while feeling so sick, but somehow I made it to work around 8am. I was having hot flashes, nose running, coughing, dizzy and nauseous. It. Was. TERRIBLE. I sucked it up and took an little extra time over lunch to lie down and relax. It helped a little I guess. By 5pm I was feeling well enough for Zumba. Now that I'm home, showered and full of sushi :) I feel meh.
I've been suffering majorly from allergies/cold since this past friday. I've got it all: runny nose, itchy skin, throat on fire, nausea. Bleh. So all that on top of getting off anti-depressants is not my cup of tea.
I can't explain how difficult it has been on my bad days. It feels like it'd be so easy to give up, and go back on them. BUT I have to remember, they don't make me feel that much better. I just need to be strong and be able to handle my anxiety (prescription free). Speaking of that, I haven't taken Xanax in MONTHS :) Woot!
So.....my green thumb kicked in this past weekend! I planted 6 packets of flower seeds, and over 20 daylily plants from our neighbor. I was so covered in dirt/mud/nasties. I loved it! The bugs/spiders aren't out quite yet, so it was lovely :) Can't wait to see stuff start blooming!
I also wanted to bake like crazy. So I made jello. HA. Seriously though. I made delicious peach jello. NOM NOM. OH, and I also made two loaves of 'Starbucks' Lemon Loaf bread. I took one loaf to work, and I think everyone liked it. :)
Anywho. While I'm feeling better, I'm going to go be lazy.
NIGHT BEAUTIFUL WORLD!!
I've been suffering majorly from allergies/cold since this past friday. I've got it all: runny nose, itchy skin, throat on fire, nausea. Bleh. So all that on top of getting off anti-depressants is not my cup of tea.
I can't explain how difficult it has been on my bad days. It feels like it'd be so easy to give up, and go back on them. BUT I have to remember, they don't make me feel that much better. I just need to be strong and be able to handle my anxiety (prescription free). Speaking of that, I haven't taken Xanax in MONTHS :) Woot!
So.....my green thumb kicked in this past weekend! I planted 6 packets of flower seeds, and over 20 daylily plants from our neighbor. I was so covered in dirt/mud/nasties. I loved it! The bugs/spiders aren't out quite yet, so it was lovely :) Can't wait to see stuff start blooming!
I also wanted to bake like crazy. So I made jello. HA. Seriously though. I made delicious peach jello. NOM NOM. OH, and I also made two loaves of 'Starbucks' Lemon Loaf bread. I took one loaf to work, and I think everyone liked it. :)
Anywho. While I'm feeling better, I'm going to go be lazy.
NIGHT BEAUTIFUL WORLD!!
Monday, March 25, 2013
Bird
Holy Moses, a bird just flew into our front window and Duke fell off the couch. Funniest. Thing. Ever.
The End.
The End.
Spring-tas-tic
For all of you NOT in Kansas, we welcomed Spring with a snow storm this past weekend. Thankfully it wasn't near as bad as projected, so no shoveling was necessary. We need the moisture *blah blah*, but I hate all the mud it creates in our backyard. We have to carry Duke from the garage to our bathtub each time he goes outside. Stupid mud. We lucked out with a dog that loves bath time, so of course he enjoys it. I have a feeling our bathtub pipes won't love it as much.
Life over the past three-ish months has been good :) Work is crazy, but that's nothing new. Hubby and I continue to work on our house, little projects here and there. Thank cheesus the first year of marriage is over, things seem to be getting better each day. Every now again we have a typical terrible day, but we handle it with patience. As long as he continues to clean up his clothes on the floor, all will be great (HA!).
My depression medication has been making me feel 'blah' for the past couple months. I haven't had any panic attacks BUT I have zero motivation to do anything, not even crafts *GASP*. So with the consensus from my Dr., I'm getting off of them. Apparently this can happen after a couple months on Pristiq. For those with severe depression, it's good to feel 'evened out' and 'blah'. Not so much for me, I'd like to enjoy things and care about things I used to love. So starting last Wednesday, I'm alternating my doses. Instead of daily, I take a pill every other day. Last Thursday morning was rough, I hadn't taken a pill since Tuesday and I was extremely dizzy. Of course I had a departmental meeting at 8am, so I was up at 6:15 am to get ready. I felt woozy and nauseous. It was so bad I ran into the bathroom door and split my toe nail open! It was the day to take a pill, so a couple hours later I felt okay. Probably shouldn't have drove to work...meh.
Since then, I've been feeling okay. Saturday morning and this morning (Monday) have gone good, I haven't felt near as nauseous or dizzy. No toe nails have been broken and all doors remain intact. I'm so thankful it's been a smooth transition thus far. I heard from others getting off of it that it gets rough when you starting skipping two doses, which makes sense. But I'll just choose to celebrate this baby step while I can! WOOT!
So to help with getting off meds, I've joined the YMCA with my bestie Casey. We've both got post-wedding weight gain, so it's about time. Dog walks aren't cutting it anymore :) We've started doing Zumba classes M,W,F and Saturday each week. It's really fun! And my body hurts the next day; a good hurt. It's been three weeks, and I feel great! Haven't weighed myself, but I feel good so that's all that matters right now. And now I can get dooooooooooooooooooowwwwnnn on the dance floor, with out looking like Elaine from Seinfeld.
I LOVE the Hobbit. And what in the heck is the Harlem Shake?
Life over the past three-ish months has been good :) Work is crazy, but that's nothing new. Hubby and I continue to work on our house, little projects here and there. Thank cheesus the first year of marriage is over, things seem to be getting better each day. Every now again we have a typical terrible day, but we handle it with patience. As long as he continues to clean up his clothes on the floor, all will be great (HA!).
My depression medication has been making me feel 'blah' for the past couple months. I haven't had any panic attacks BUT I have zero motivation to do anything, not even crafts *GASP*. So with the consensus from my Dr., I'm getting off of them. Apparently this can happen after a couple months on Pristiq. For those with severe depression, it's good to feel 'evened out' and 'blah'. Not so much for me, I'd like to enjoy things and care about things I used to love. So starting last Wednesday, I'm alternating my doses. Instead of daily, I take a pill every other day. Last Thursday morning was rough, I hadn't taken a pill since Tuesday and I was extremely dizzy. Of course I had a departmental meeting at 8am, so I was up at 6:15 am to get ready. I felt woozy and nauseous. It was so bad I ran into the bathroom door and split my toe nail open! It was the day to take a pill, so a couple hours later I felt okay. Probably shouldn't have drove to work...meh.
Since then, I've been feeling okay. Saturday morning and this morning (Monday) have gone good, I haven't felt near as nauseous or dizzy. No toe nails have been broken and all doors remain intact. I'm so thankful it's been a smooth transition thus far. I heard from others getting off of it that it gets rough when you starting skipping two doses, which makes sense. But I'll just choose to celebrate this baby step while I can! WOOT!
So to help with getting off meds, I've joined the YMCA with my bestie Casey. We've both got post-wedding weight gain, so it's about time. Dog walks aren't cutting it anymore :) We've started doing Zumba classes M,W,F and Saturday each week. It's really fun! And my body hurts the next day; a good hurt. It's been three weeks, and I feel great! Haven't weighed myself, but I feel good so that's all that matters right now. And now I can get dooooooooooooooooooowwwwnnn on the dance floor, with out looking like Elaine from Seinfeld.
I LOVE the Hobbit. And what in the heck is the Harlem Shake?
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
So....
It's been awhile. Happy 2013!
A lot has happened since my last entry. I won't divulge here on the specifics. Just know that I continue to work on myself and my relationships with those closest to me. I'm a long stronger than I was a couple months ago. I regret that way I've handled things in the past, BUT they happened for a reasons, even if you don't believe in that sort of thing.
The past couple weeks have been a blur. A happy blur, but very busy. First off, I've been sick with the typical nasty cold/flu season stuff. It comes and goes in it's severity, today it's pretty terrible. Actually, my husband is also home sick with it. We're pretty miserable. Lucky Duke is here to take care of us :)
Christmas was fun, but not really relaxing. The 21st was spent celebrating my friend, Gilda's, birthday. We went to Hong Kong buffet and putt putt golfing. I'd never been to Hong Kong before, it was alright. I tried to stay on the healthier side, but I LOVE crab rangoons. We went with some co-workers, Jeff and Maggie, and another friend of Gildas, Gloria. Putt-putt was fun, I haven't played in awhile. We kept score for awhile, but just enjoyed being ridiculous after Hole 5 or 6. It was awesome! AND we didn't have to get plastered to have fun.
The 22nd hubby and I went for family Christmas in McPherson on his uncles dairy farm. We did the whole White Elephant thing, ended up with a panini toaster. I was pretty miserable and sick the entire time, and tried to keep my snot to myself. The 23rd-24th my mother, Gilda and I went to spend time in Hill City with my grandparents. I love it there. I started a fire in their fireplace, and we played Mexican Train dominos and 'You name it' card game for hours. We came back early on the 24th, and went right back to McPherson to spend the night with hubbys parents. We opened presents and enjoyed my father in laws amazing grill skills. On Christmas we went right from McPherson to my dads house in the country for some lunch. My dad hooked us up with some Zombie killing equipment (knives and such). It does make me feel a bit safer :) We then came home and enjoyed Christmas night with my mom and Duke.
I didn't take any time off work this past holiday season, which probably didn't help my cold. So right back to work I went the day after Christmas. New Years came and went quickly. Hubby and I enjoyed dinner at Martinellis on New Years Eve with my dad, step-mom, step-sister and her family. We then went and bought a Wii, and bailed on going to a country bar. We spent the night battling each other in Mario Cart (MY FAV GAME) and Wii sports. We spent most of New Years day playing Wii tennis, bowling and Mario Cart. Time well spent :)
I don't do new years resolutions. Too much pressure :) HA. BUT I continue to build my relationship with God and my husband.
Hope everyone had a great holiday season, bring on 2013!
A lot has happened since my last entry. I won't divulge here on the specifics. Just know that I continue to work on myself and my relationships with those closest to me. I'm a long stronger than I was a couple months ago. I regret that way I've handled things in the past, BUT they happened for a reasons, even if you don't believe in that sort of thing.
The past couple weeks have been a blur. A happy blur, but very busy. First off, I've been sick with the typical nasty cold/flu season stuff. It comes and goes in it's severity, today it's pretty terrible. Actually, my husband is also home sick with it. We're pretty miserable. Lucky Duke is here to take care of us :)
Christmas was fun, but not really relaxing. The 21st was spent celebrating my friend, Gilda's, birthday. We went to Hong Kong buffet and putt putt golfing. I'd never been to Hong Kong before, it was alright. I tried to stay on the healthier side, but I LOVE crab rangoons. We went with some co-workers, Jeff and Maggie, and another friend of Gildas, Gloria. Putt-putt was fun, I haven't played in awhile. We kept score for awhile, but just enjoyed being ridiculous after Hole 5 or 6. It was awesome! AND we didn't have to get plastered to have fun.
The 22nd hubby and I went for family Christmas in McPherson on his uncles dairy farm. We did the whole White Elephant thing, ended up with a panini toaster. I was pretty miserable and sick the entire time, and tried to keep my snot to myself. The 23rd-24th my mother, Gilda and I went to spend time in Hill City with my grandparents. I love it there. I started a fire in their fireplace, and we played Mexican Train dominos and 'You name it' card game for hours. We came back early on the 24th, and went right back to McPherson to spend the night with hubbys parents. We opened presents and enjoyed my father in laws amazing grill skills. On Christmas we went right from McPherson to my dads house in the country for some lunch. My dad hooked us up with some Zombie killing equipment (knives and such). It does make me feel a bit safer :) We then came home and enjoyed Christmas night with my mom and Duke.
I didn't take any time off work this past holiday season, which probably didn't help my cold. So right back to work I went the day after Christmas. New Years came and went quickly. Hubby and I enjoyed dinner at Martinellis on New Years Eve with my dad, step-mom, step-sister and her family. We then went and bought a Wii, and bailed on going to a country bar. We spent the night battling each other in Mario Cart (MY FAV GAME) and Wii sports. We spent most of New Years day playing Wii tennis, bowling and Mario Cart. Time well spent :)
I don't do new years resolutions. Too much pressure :) HA. BUT I continue to build my relationship with God and my husband.
Hope everyone had a great holiday season, bring on 2013!
Sunday, September 30, 2012
First week at 'home', Lion King, Bridal festivities
So I know I've posted that we've officially moved into our humble abode (spell check?). It's been interesting adjusting to the new place. It feels weird sleeping in our bed, and adjusting to new neighborhood sounds at night. I've had to bust out my ear plugs a couple nights since I'm such a light sleeper. We're having issues with our darn bathroom sink too. I keep pouring Drano to fix it, but apparently that isn't working... Hubby took it apart and soaked our toilet paper. Still didn't find the problem, so looks like we'll be finding a plumber.
This last weekend was exhausting. Friday, hubby and I went to the Lion King on faux broadway in Wichita. I've seen the show before, but it was still really good. The props are incredible, and the actors have such great talent. That night we stayed at the Hyatt, which is attached to where the Lion King was showing. All we had to do was walk through the hotel :) This was much appreciated since I wore my platform heels. Neither one of us slept much that night, probably because we had a busy day ahead of us.
Saturday we drove to McPherson and got our hair done by hubbys mother (she owns her own salon). Bye bye blonde, hello redish brown. I LOVE it. Hubby got his shaggyness all taken care of and looks great :) No more beiber hair. After that I drove home wo help my friend with her wedding in two weeks. Being master of the glue gun, I got assigned to glue yarn wrapped wine bottles and lace wrapped mason jars. I also painted mason jars and other misc. things. Towards the end we started making cream cheese mints into pink flower shapes. She needed over a thousand. OH I forgot to mention, I pushed a glue stick down to far and the glue burst all over my running pants. I'm so shocked I don't have burn marks. I guess that ruins my glue gun cred...
After that I headed home to relax briefly before a friend came over to catch up. We haven't seen eachother in three years, so long overdue. Now I got myself an awesome Harry Potter poster and some comics to catch up on. I'm almost done with the first one. My friend is right, I do like them :)
This morning I took my pup on a run at the park pretty early and tried to sleep (no success). I did some chores and waited for hubby to get home (he was at a party all weekend). When he finally got home, I actually got a nap in! It felt great to sleep for awhile, not quite long enough though. Fingers crossed I can actually sleep tonight now. We shall see.
Overall it's been an up and down week with some surprises. But i'd classify it as good overall. I'm so ready for some vacation. Too bad I have to wait until Thanksgiving.
Anywho, hubby and I are going to watch a scary movie. And for those of you who know me, this is a big deal which I may regret later.
Night beautiful world!
This last weekend was exhausting. Friday, hubby and I went to the Lion King on faux broadway in Wichita. I've seen the show before, but it was still really good. The props are incredible, and the actors have such great talent. That night we stayed at the Hyatt, which is attached to where the Lion King was showing. All we had to do was walk through the hotel :) This was much appreciated since I wore my platform heels. Neither one of us slept much that night, probably because we had a busy day ahead of us.
Saturday we drove to McPherson and got our hair done by hubbys mother (she owns her own salon). Bye bye blonde, hello redish brown. I LOVE it. Hubby got his shaggyness all taken care of and looks great :) No more beiber hair. After that I drove home wo help my friend with her wedding in two weeks. Being master of the glue gun, I got assigned to glue yarn wrapped wine bottles and lace wrapped mason jars. I also painted mason jars and other misc. things. Towards the end we started making cream cheese mints into pink flower shapes. She needed over a thousand. OH I forgot to mention, I pushed a glue stick down to far and the glue burst all over my running pants. I'm so shocked I don't have burn marks. I guess that ruins my glue gun cred...
After that I headed home to relax briefly before a friend came over to catch up. We haven't seen eachother in three years, so long overdue. Now I got myself an awesome Harry Potter poster and some comics to catch up on. I'm almost done with the first one. My friend is right, I do like them :)
This morning I took my pup on a run at the park pretty early and tried to sleep (no success). I did some chores and waited for hubby to get home (he was at a party all weekend). When he finally got home, I actually got a nap in! It felt great to sleep for awhile, not quite long enough though. Fingers crossed I can actually sleep tonight now. We shall see.
Overall it's been an up and down week with some surprises. But i'd classify it as good overall. I'm so ready for some vacation. Too bad I have to wait until Thanksgiving.
Anywho, hubby and I are going to watch a scary movie. And for those of you who know me, this is a big deal which I may regret later.
Night beautiful world!
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